Christina Heaston

What is it then?

Posted in Uncategorized by christinaheaston on September 29, 2009

love (1 of 1)

If it isn’t boots and water and October and confusing things.
If it isn’t your hands and your eyes and your mouth.
If it isn’t second chances and forgotten intensity.
If it isn’t wondering the size of your very own heart.
If it isn’t two souls in wanting.
If it isn’t sleeping on the left side of the bed.
If it isn’t being intentional and being assertive.
If it isn’t hand written letters postmarked 2005.
If it isn’t the very second you told me I was wrong.
If it isn’t lies and secrets and empty parking lots.
If it isn’t random happenings and exploding hearts.
If it isn’t simpler times and fresh flowers every Wednesday.
If it isn’t being silent-if it isn’t being still.
If it isn’t the reason I broke into your house on the fifth.
If it isn’t conflicting emotions and feeling empty somedays-
if it isn’t the reincarnation of feeling and being whole somedays.
If it isn’t cloudy signals and singing in your car.
If it isn’t every single feeling.
If it isn’t your six-foot-one frame.
If it isn’t in your DNA.
If it isn’t feeling the universe shift.
if it isn’t repeating everything we don’t understand.
If it isn’t as awkward as ever.
If it isn’t being guided by your heart.
If it isn’t my streams of consciousness.
If it isn’t the way you always manage to sound intelligent without ever really answering my question at all.
If it isn’t those rare moments when you really understand.
If it isn’t being completely overwhelmed by the selflessness of another.
If it isn’t me wanting to know every single thing buried so deep inside your heart.
If it isn’t letting you change all my plans.
If it isn’t creative and receptive.
If it isn’t your weak analogies to help me understand what I already know.
If it isn’t the laugh lines that leak into your eyes.

If it isn’t these things.
What is it then,  that true love is made up of?
Pieces of what?

I do not know.


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  1. jane said, on September 30, 2009 at 12:36 am


  2. Rachel Halsey said, on September 30, 2009 at 8:18 am

    oh man…. i love this.
    you’re so beautiful:)

  3. charisjordan said, on October 1, 2009 at 10:58 am

    if i were a boy.
    id be in love with you.

    thats all im saying.

  4. charisjordan said, on October 1, 2009 at 10:58 am

    … i mean.. im a girl and im still in love with you..
    But you know what i mean 🙂 hahah

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